Sunday 26 April 2009

Green Eyed Friend


I was recently reading an article on Green Eyed Friends. Supposedly an unhealthy trait among people hindering them to allow space to their friends. Well, I realised I tend to become green eyed at times. It takes me time to make friends. Well, although I say am not attached to anyone, in actuality I feel I get over-attached. I begin to trust them with my life, maybe I expect a lot and when those expectations are not met, get depressed. What I tend to give I never receive it back. Whoever I get too attached to leaves me and that has filled a dread in me that it'll happen yet again. I get obsessive and possessive about the people I care about. Am I wrong to do it. It's just my love for them. Is it unreal to possess unfathomable affection. But at the end of the day it's a mind fucking game of Tag n who wins. Not me I guess!

Saturday 25 April 2009

Despair!


My fingers are numb,
my feet sore,
dragging myself,
striving for a glimmer in this darkness,
can't see anything before,
I can't walk now anymore.

I have left trying for a while now
straining to walk stumbling again,
lying unconscious,
trying to stay asure,
but I can't walk now anymore.

Toes are bleeding, heels all cracked,
feel so nauseous, I can't stay sane,
flailing around me looking for a sound,
eyes are burning, the path obscure,
I can't walk now anymore.

All hope is lost now,
no I can't walk now anymore...