lost dream

You still made my heart skip a bit,
eyes moist again..
But I don’t love u anymore.
Neither do you,
But something still pulls us
A silken thread of memories,
Tangled in the thorns of life,
Singed with pain,
An addictive sweet pain…

Cuppy cake!

Another experiment from the FOODOHOLIC series is here! "cuppy cakes".
Made in earthenwares, deeply dark chocolate and date cupcakes with a secret ingredient "Glenfidditch 18 yrs aged in cherry oak casks". Quite a controversial ingredient that is why kept secret for Indian audiences ;).
P.S. don't use terra cotta if u want to remove the cakes from the mould.

The Wooden Horse part I

When I opened my eyes I found myself surrounded by shiny paper and pieces of the cardboard box in which I had been. Waiting for a breath of fresh air. When I adjusted my eyes to this sudden flash of sunlight, I noticed a little boy, chubby, with soft pink fingers. He had a small nose on his little pink face reddened by the chill outside, his hands moving slowly towards me. Then he grabbed me, fondly judging my new coat of paint.

A sudden blast of voice rattled my ears, “Ravi come soon, breakfast is ready.” He hurriedly went to another room, still clutching me tightly. The room was bright and sunny. Cool breeze flowing in through the window. The walls were covered in flowered paper. A big oak round table in the middle of the room surrounded by six chairs. At the center of this table was a yellow porcelain flower vase filled with fresh blooming red roses. A lady wearing a lavender hued saree was serving food to a young girl who was merrily waving to Ravi, “Hi! Big brother do you crave for some hot paranthas mumma made.” She must be her sister, I thought. Her mother looked squarely at her. She happily resumed gorging down her morsels. On one of the chairs sat someone I could not comprehend as he was holding a newspaper before him. He was reading something very intently unaware of the tea getting cold kept in front of him. Ravi stuffed me in a big red bag. It smelt of wood of the sharpened pencils, the pleasing smell of new books and copies mingled with smell of chocolates and the smell of hot steaming paranthas from a little green box kept in front of me. I looked around, everything was dark, yet comforting. I knew I was safe here.

When I saw sunlight again I was in an altogether different scene, surrounded by at least a dozen children each one passing me from one to another. Some holding me gently, while the others tossed me. Ouch! He almost popped my eyeball out of its socket, such a naughty boy. Another girl pulled my ears. Some stroked my tail while another one was coming towards me with a shiny pointed object and “swish”. I was again safe in the hands of Ravi, panting. He scolded her,” Don’t prick my horse with your compass, it’ll hurt him.” Just then came a lady with a hooked nose and a pair of black-rimmed glasses was resting on it. Her small yet piercing eyes compelled everyone to sit at their places. She came slowly towards Ravi and surprisingly said in a soft voice, “ Happy Birthday Ravi, congratulations, but please keep that toy inside, it causes disturbance.” He quietly kept me on a shelf beneath his table. From this place I had a clear view of the front of the room. This was his classroom and she his teacher. She was writing assiduously something on the black board covering the whole of the wall. Her black hair tied in a neat bun rested on her head like an apple kept on a pumpkin.



To be continued

Message in a bottle

A Message in a bottle
I threw in the sea,
where it'll reach
I know not.
But the tides will take it
wherever they'll go.
Or may be lost in the sea.
It may reach a worthy hand,
who will tell the world,
the story,
about the message in the bottle,
thrown out at sea.

The cake that was not to be!

I'm a die hard what u may call a FOODOHOLIC! I love food, good food that is, aesthetically presented... even better. So half of my time goes in the kitchen trying out recipes from the internet, trying to teach myself the TRADITIONAL ones I ought to learn, or just improvising some new stuff of my own... I love being in the kitchen. Recently I've been spending more time than usual thanx to me having no work nowadays. And what better way to diverge AN EMPTY MIND from being a DEVIL'S WORKSHOP. This led me to try out the more difficult of the species. The mighty and hallowed "CAKE". Since I'm an avid follower of improvisation, I try to alter my mum's basic recipe to include a wider variety. A recent experiment of mine made my friend a poet and he composed a few lines in it's honour. It goes as follows:

THE CAKE THAT WAS NOT TO BE !

BUTTER , FLOUR , EGG ALL IT TOOK IN
EVEN THE ICING WERE NOT TOO THIN

EFFORT AND TIME WAS ALWAYS THERE
IMPROVISATION WAS ALSO RATHER FAIR

IT WASN'T TO BE , IT STUCK TO THE BOWL
ALL ADO , FOR THIS FOUL

.... THE CAKE THAT WAS NOT TO BE !

(courtesy Bhaumik dada)

P.S. Since I had no image of the cake in question, the image of a more successful one of my experiments has been posted!

Green Eyed Friend

I was recently reading an article on Green Eyed Friends. Supposedly an unhealthy trait among people hindering them to allow space to their friends. Well, I realised I tend to become green eyed at times. It takes me time to make friends. Well, although I say am not attached to anyone, in actuality I feel I get over-attached. I begin to trust them with my life, maybe I expect a lot and when those expectations are not met, get depressed. What I tend to give I never receive it back. Whoever I get too attached to leaves me and that has filled a dread in me that it'll happen yet again. I get obsessive and possessive about the people I care about. Am I wrong to do it. It's just my love for them. Is it unreal to possess unfathomable affection. But at the end of the day it's a mind fucking game of Tag n who wins. Not me I guess!

Despair!

My fingers are numb,
my feet sore,
dragging myself,
striving for a glimmer in this darkness,
can't see anything before,
I can't walk now anymore.

I have left trying for a while now
straining to walk stumbling again,
lying unconscious,
trying to stay asure,
but I can't walk now anymore.

Toes are bleeding, heels all cracked,
feel so nauseous, I can't stay sane,
flailing around me looking for a sound,
eyes are burning, the path obscure,
I can't walk now anymore.

All hope is lost now,
no I can't walk now anymore...